and then you were gone,

the moon twisted to unseen and dead beat stars gave up,
the earth cracked open and the doors to heaven slammed shut,
the wolf lost all hunger and sprawled in the darkness, surrendering
to nothingness, a great emptiness inside, spreading from stomach to heart
to fingertips, strangely light, outstretched, reaching for one last touch, before the tears
wash away the past, for the weeping now, of sobs convulsing and shoulders trembling,
seized with the fractured space, that is the world without you,





and there you were,

soft, black haired baby with closed eyes, opening mine,
curled up lump of sweet smelling newness, sleeping miracle
swaddled to recreate the womb that you relinquished, sadly I am sure,
for what a perfect world in utero, with that heartbeat rhythm and maternal waltz,
we danced, you and me, and the dance will continue, in the fresh air of a new world,
spinning on its head, in an ungainly but glorious departure from what was, the sun sets
in the west, a dali-esque timepiece melts in the distance, but rising in the east,
a sunflower dazzle,




Crystal Anniversary (Holey Quacamole)


Fifteen years we’ve been married today,
flying by in a wonderful way
we’ve had ups, we’ve had downs
we’ve had smiles with the frowns,
the roller coaster ride of a life you might say.


ps,. I updated the limerick (you may remember it from our 12th anniversary – hahahaha – how time flies)

Book Review: ‘Cracked’ by Clare Strahan


Do you remember Clare Strahan from Literary Rats infamy? Well this wonderful lady has published a damned fine YA novel called Cracked and yes, it is everything it’s cracked up to be ;) and I am nowhere near the age of the target audience #sigh

Cracked is a coming of age novel about a girl called Clover (the name says it all) traversing those treacherous roads from ages 15 to 17. Clover considers herself a bit of a ‘freak’ (and so do her friends) because of her unusual upbringing. She has been raised by her single mother (result of a one night stand with a man who then quickly disappeared) with some unconventional ideas. They live in a household with no computers (and no facebook!) and as Clover says: ‘I was a Steiner-freak who ate home-baked bread and brown rice and didn’t have a television’.

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Wrong Side of Something


Wrong side of something

A bed has sides, for to
wake up on the wrong side of

my clock is alarmed, as am I,
amnesia of sleep trickery wins the day

my breakfast in bed is missing
in action, feared dead

my coffee is black, deserted
by milk, awol – again

my toast is burnt – a consequence of stubborn
refusal to budge

my dog is late for the great outdoors,
the kids are late for the bus

and I am too late,
she cried, as she waved her wooden leg.


Malasian Airlines Flight MH17


My thoughts are with the family and friends of those who perished in the tragic crash of the Malaysia Airlines Flight MH17.

It is particularly devastating to hear that a number of the passengers killed were heading to the Melbourne International AIDS Conference in Australia, including pioneer and leading researcher in the field, Joep Lange (former president of the International AIDS Society).

Many years ago I worked in a HIV/AIDS Unit (in my role as coordinator of Hepatitis C Services for injecting drug users). It always struck me how much tragedy was ever present in this community of individuals directly and indirectly affected by HIV/AIDS. Yet, they powered on courageously with their fight to reduce disease and discrimination. I had the greatest admiration and respect for the people I worked with and met in this area.

The fight continues to this day, however the issue has become less of a priority for many in Government (hovering in the background as if all the problems had been solved because of advances in treatment). Only recently the conservative led Government of Queensland stripped a huge amount of funding from HIV/AIDS programs in the State. But things are still very grim throughout the world for the millions (34 million plus) affected by HIV/AIDS and there is no room for complacency.

To lose these researchers and workers in the global HIV/AIDS field is just horrific and so unfair.

To lose anyone in this act of carnage is horrific.